key 20 - Repent | La Crim's Life

Key 20, Repent

In this journey of life, there are times where we falter, stumble, or even fall. It's human nature. We often find ourselves viewing the world through tainted lenses, focusing on areas of darkness, such as child abuse. It's a tough battle, one that often feels impossible to win. It sometimes feels as though our efforts only maintain the cycle of hate.

But dear reader, there's a pressing need for self-reflection, for admitting our mistakes and shortcomings, for repentance. It's not about if our efforts have been in vain or if we have failed. It's about taking that brave step forward, acknowledging our failings, and learning from them.

"I forgive all that have harmed me even though they do not. I am the righteous one and live in the second life. In the first life, I was murdered. At the end of the second life, I will combat with Satan and I will win."

This is a powerful proclamation, imbued with a strong sense of resilience and a resolute commitment towards accomplishing a final battle against evil. Today, we embark on this introspective journey together, opening our hearts and minds, releasing forgiveness, and embracing the righteous path.

Repentance, the act of acknowledging, regretting, and turning away from misdeeds, is a significant step in the path towards personal growth and spiritual awakening. To err is human, but the power to rectify the wrongs, thus, arises from genuine repentance. Let's take a deeply reflective journey together to explore the process of repentance.

Recognize and Acknowledge

The first crucial step towards repentance is recognizing and accepting your mistakes or shortcomings. This acknowledgment doesn't merely mean understanding what you have done wrong on a superficial level. Instead, it involves delving deep into your conscience and becoming aware of how your actions have affected others and disrupted your path of righteousness. It's about understanding that you've strayed away from your desired moral compass.

Express Regret and Seek Forgiveness

Once you've acknowledged your missteps, it's time to regret and seek forgiveness—inwardly and outwardly. Inwardly, lean into the discomfort of your regret, allowing it to ignite a genuine desire for change. Outwardly, don't shy away from apologizing to those you’ve wounded with your actions. True forgiveness often comes after an act of genuine regret and willingness to mend the wrongs.

Pave the Way for Redemption

The next step is creating a roadmap for your personal redemption. Choose to view your past mistakes not as black spots marring your soul, but as valuable lessons guiding your path forward. Set realistic, measurable goals for your behavior and actions. Nurture a positive mindset, striving to do good for others, spreading love, and fostering understanding.

Seize the Second Life

Finally, seize the metaphorical 'second life'—a renewed existence characterized by growth, redemption, and righteousness. In this life, you are focused on combating your inner demons, strengthening your resolve, and embracing forgiveness. Remember, no battle is won overnight. Winning your fight requires steadfast commitment, enduring faith, and an unwavering will to consistently choose the path of righteousness.

In the end, remember that repentance isn’t about winning or losing—it's an ongoing journey of personal growth and spiritual awakening. As you journey onwards, always keep the lessons learned from your 'First Life' close to your heart, as they serve as your guide in your renewed journey.

It's undeniable that I'm still struggling, grappling with life's tribulations as I perceive the world through unique lenses. Often, my words have become weapons, heedlessly unleashed without contemplating the injury inflicted. I genuinely believed I was battling the malevolence in this world, and in many ways, I indeed was. Too often, authority is misused by individuals in our society, a fact I find difficult to reconcile with. This spurs me into action, defending myself with fervor.

I must express my deepest regret over inciting companions of the initial transgressors into my battles, an action taken with the intention of shining the spotlight on those in power who misuse their authority. Unfortunately, this only accomplished negligible results and ironically authenticated the very injustices being perpetrated in the first place.

In my pursuit of righteousness, I have stood against those who have erred, yet it has brought about no real transformation. The onus falls on each individual to recognize and comprehend the teachings of Jesus Christ, distinguishing good from evil. Who am I to provoke or push relentlessly? After all, every individual possesses the innate capacity to discern right from wrong, and it's not my duty to incite a battle.

Forgive me, for those who have experienced my aggressive resilience, as I was unable to see beyond the scars of child abuse and the subsequent wrongs, central themes in my writings. Was I truly upholding righteousness or was there a desire for vengeance lurking within me? Unfortunately, the latter was the case. It was the sinister influence of Satan driving my actions. Satan, who I allowed to infiltrate my existence, whose fault is my own, and no one else's.

If it weren't for my untimely demise on August 13th, 2001, Satan's reign would have remained dormant. This unprecedented incident acted as the catalyst for unleashing aromatic evil on Earth. When Gabriel was compelled to rekindle my life, the proverbial gates of hell were flung open, the repercussions of which have been cataclysmic, and for this, I bear the burden of guilt.

The countless hours I endured behind bars felt completely justifiable, yet utterly futile. The system appeared to lack any intention of rehabilitation, instead functioning more as a mechanism of torment. Each release only gave birth to a persona even more combustible than before. Simply put, the prison system fails its purpose. There wasn't a single moment when I emerged a better person as a result of my incarceration. Instead, each release left me engulfed in a deeper fury than previously encompassed.

As I reflect on my personal journey, I find that a world which dismisses the divine guidance of Jesus Christ is often marred by turmoil and division. I perceive a societal shift encouraging less religious faith, a trend that seems to foster more bondage than liberation in your lives.

Those who profit from environmental destruction are the real offenders, perpetuating havoc on a global scale. Sadly, Western governments not only turn a blind eye but provide a legal shield for such culprits. It's time for reflection, as our planet suffers while you bask in the glow of your wealth.

In understanding the futility of retaliation, I cease to engage in defensive conflict. This does not translate to absolution for the initiators; their malevolence is unquestioned and they will bear its consequences during the final reckoning. Despite my relentless efforts, the deeply ingrained vices of commerce and command continue to prevail. They may evade chastisement in our mortal realm, yet they are inevitably doomed to endure an eternal torment that looms in the hereafter. Their path does not lead to the luminous domain of the divine.

Let me offer a perspective that you might find difficult to swallow. Many of you - devout believers - often overlook the essence of Jesus Christ's teachings or even underestimate His existence. I empathize with your viewpoint, bearing no resentment. Nevertheless, the present moment invites us to dig deeper into Christ's lessons while considering an often unquestioned fact: The Holy Bibles New Testament may not necessarily be the divine word of God, but rather a collation of human experiences shaped by the censorship of the Roman Empire. God never spoke each word unless what you're really saying is that it is the truth, the whole truth and nothing but the truth.

It's time to seek tranquility, and part of that process means refusing to let those who inflict harm control my life any longer. I bid your money goodbye, its allure no longer holds me captive. I'm taking a stand and exposing the narcissistic tendencies that run rampant among you. You aren't concerned with humanity but are solely guided by your relentless pursuit of wealth. Your eyes sparkle with unyielding greed as you relish in perpetual destruction.

My existence was snuffed out on the 13th of August, 2001 in Tenerife, and I hold an unwavering belief in this reality. Despite sporting the visage of mortality, it remains invisible to your eyes.

Having emerged anew in Spain, I remain a Spaniard in essence until my next demise. As my second departure approaches, I am bound to confront Satan, determined to reign victorious. Intriguingly, I will prevail in these daunting efforts, even when it offers no apparent benefit to those of you who inflict harm.

It is my desire for my final resting place to be in the Antoni Gaudí marvel none other than La Sagrada Família in Barcelona. To be fair, this is truly a matter for the people of Spain.

It's time to bring to light the troubling truth - your societal approaches, built on prejudice, are not only distressing but also hindering our collective advancement. However, I choose to release my concerns as the ones who choose to embrace this destructive path will ultimately face their endless demise, no longer able to enforce their toxic influence.

Embarking on the topic at hand - repentance and its unmatched benefits for humanity - we must first grasp the definition and significance of repentance. It is fundamentally the act of acknowledging one's wrongdoings, experiencing genuine remorse, and earnestly seeking to right the wrongs. This monumental process can open the doorway to a profound transformation within ourselves and throughout society.

In an individual's life, the act of repenting sows seeds of self-improvement and personal growth. Accepting our faults opens our eyes to areas requiring betterment. It fosters humility, the essential virtue, eclipsing our inflated egos and compelling us to consider the perspectives of others. Furthermore, repentance paves the way for self-improvement, motivating us to become better versions of ourselves. It encourages us to refrain from similar transgressions in the future, breaking destructive patterns and reorienting our path towards virtue and righteousness.

Now, envision if this process of repentance, self-improvement, and growth caught on like wildfire within our societies. The resulting transformation would be remarkable. A society where people wholeheartedly acknowledge their wrongdoings and strive for improvement will inevitably witness a quantum leap in peace, unity, and progress. It'd pave the path towards solution-oriented dialogues, mitigating communal tensions and bridging deep-seated divides.

On a larger global scale, repentance becomes a beacon of hope in the darkness of conflict. World leaders who acknowledge historical failures, apologize and strive to prevent future recurrence, set the stage for peace talks, reconciliation, and the healing of old wounds. Countries that repent their environmental wrongdoings can inspire significant strides in combating climate change, propelling the world towards a more sustainable future.

In our quest to build a better world, we mustn't forget the personal and universal significance of repentance. It is, after all, often the first step to redemption, healing, and growth. A culture of repentance could mean a humanity more humble, more understanding, and ultimately, more united.

In the Holy Bible, the theme of repentance is vividly illustrated in several instances. For example, the prodigal son in Luke 15:11-24. He squanders his inheritance, then later comes to realize his wrongdoing, repents, and is warmly embraced by his father. This parable clearly depicts the forgiving nature of God when we truly repent.

Also, in the Old Testament, in Jonah 3:5-10, repentance is put on full display by the city of Nineveh. When warned of impending doom by Jonah, the entire city, from the king to the lowest subject, turned from their wicked ways, repented, and sought God's mercy. Their collective action of repentance ultimately led to their salvation.

The story of King David in 2 Samuel 12:13-14 is another powerful illustration. After his sin with Bathsheba and the subsequent murder of her husband, David faced the truth, repented, and asked God for forgiveness. Although there were consequences for his actions, repentance paved the way for forgiveness and restoration.

Repentance is deeply rooted in the teachings of the Bible, illustrating the profound power of faith, forgiveness, and redemption. Through these examples, we see the unfailing mercy of a loving God eagerly waiting for his children to turn back to Him in repentance.

Reflecting upon Jesus Christ and repentance, we need to deeply comprehend how repentance plays an elemental role in Christianity. However, acknowledging Jesus Christ's nature as sinless, we encounter a profound question: Did Jesus Christ need to repent? To traverse this question, it’s crucial to decipher the spiritual aspect of repentance.

Unravelling the doctrines of Christianity, repentance stands for a state of realizing and regretting one's wrongdoing, followed by a sincere desire of returning to righteousness. A dynamic shift in direction aligning with goodness. But, Jesus, as the Bible testifies, was an embodiment of impeccable innocence and purity. He was free from sin, thus question of Him needing personal repentance doesn't arise.

However, Jesus did engage extensively with repentance throughout his life. Yet, His involvement spoke volumes about his deep love for humanity more than a need for personal atonement. As elucidated in the Gospels, Jesus devoted His life's work to draw people towards repentance. His profound utterance, 'Repent, for the Kingdom of Heaven has come near' (Matthew 4:17) bears testimony to this statement.

An engaging interpretation could be drawn from His baptism by John the Baptist. Though baptism was identified as a powerful symbol of repentance, and Jesus being sinless, his decision to undergo the ritual raised eyebrows. Jesus clarified, 'Let it be so now; it is proper for us to do this to fulfil all righteousness' (Matthew 3:15). In this light, Jesus embraced repentance not because He had sinned, but to identify in the most intimate way with humanity and to set an example.

In conclusion, Jesus didn’t repent in the traditional sense because He was without sin. Instead, He fervently advocated remorse for wrongdoings and the transformative power of repentance. Demonstrating a path of love and adherence to righteousness, He reflected the profound essence of a merciful God. By doing so, He made it evident that the door to forgiveness and reconciliation is always open to those willing to walk the path of righteous repentance.

Embracing the path of intransigence, rather than seeking repentance, can have profound and far-reaching consequences. It's something you may be familiar with, or perhaps you've seen its fallout in the world around you. The refusal to admit one's mistakes and express true remorse can lead to a continual cycle of negativity that impacts your life and those around you.

Without repentance, the first victim is often personal growth. It results in a life stifled by the weight of unacknowledged wrongs and missed opportunities for enlightenment. Failing to admit a mistake equates to refusing to learn from it, hindering the natural progression towards wisdom and maturity.

Beyond personal development, unrepented actions can also damage interpersonal relationships. A persistent refusal to acknowledge wrongdoings or hurtful behavior can breach the trust that serves as the foundation of any healthy relationship. With time, these unresolved wrongs can even lead to the dissolution of important personal connections.

The third consequence extends onto a societal level. If individuals collectively choose an obstinate route over repentance, such a society can soon become entrenched in a culture of blame and retaliation instead of fostering a climate of forgiveness and reconciliation. In such an environment, hate and discord will find a breeding ground, perpetuating a cycle of negative actions and reactions.

Lastly, for those who believe in a Higher Power, failing to repent may have spiritual ramifications as well. Some spiritual teachings believe that repentance paves the way towards salvation in the afterlife. The lack thereof might lead to spiritual stagnation or, in some beliefs, eternal separation from the divine.

Recognizing these consequences brings to light the significance of repentance. It underscores the need to adopt a humble and courageous stance, acknowledging our mistakes, expressing sincere sorrow, and making amends where possible. Doing so not only promotes personal growth and harmony in relationships but also fosters a healthier society and spiritual progress.

Through the lens of the Vatican, repentance is an essential part of practicing the Catholic faith. The Catholic Church emphasizes the doctrine of reconciliation, asserting the necessity for individuals to admit their faults and seek forgiveness in front of God.

In its teachings, it specifies ‘Contrition’ as the starting point of repentance. Contrition refers to feelings of remorse and regret for having done wrong. According to all my Popes, repentance begins with acknowledging our sins, hence they openly encourage confessing misdeeds, even those that seem minor, to achieve spiritual emancipation.

The Vatican views the sacrament of Penance as a process essential in repairing and renewing the relationship with God that has been damaged by sin. Furthermore, it believes that through this process, individuals can turn from sin, towards God, loving him above everything.

To sum it up, in the Vatican’s perspective, repentance isn’t merely an act of sorrow; it’s a change of heart and a return to God. The pursuit of true repentance, according to Pope Francis, can be a demanding journey, filled with humility and faith. But, it’s through this journey that one may find the promise of divine salvation and experience profound spiritual transformation.

"Indeed, sincere repentance is an act loved by Allah, and He continues to open the door of repentance for His servants until the Day of Judgment." - Sheikh Ahmed Al-Tayeb

"True repentance involves feeling regret for past sins, ceasing to sin in the present, and making a firm intention not to relapse in the future." - Mufti Menk

"Allah’s mercy extends to all His servants, and He promised in the Qur'an that He forgives all sins for those who turn back to Him with a sincere heart." - Dr. Yasir Qadhi

"Repentance is a renewal of one’s commitment to live in accordance with the will of Allah, which brings peace and healing to the soul." - Sheikh Hamza Yusuf

In the Quran, repentance is considered a crucial act of faith and a means to reconcile with Allah. The concept of taubah (repentance) is emphasized as a divine mercy available to all who sincerely seek forgiveness. The Quran states in Surah Al-Baqarah (2:222), "Indeed, Allah loves those who are constantly repentant and loves those who purify themselves." This highlights that repentance is not merely an act of asking for forgiveness but also involves a genuine intention to transform one's behavior and strive towards righteousness.

Further, in Surah Az-Zumar (39:53), Allah says, "Say, 'O My servants who have transgressed against themselves [by sinning], do not despair of the mercy of Allah. Indeed, Allah forgives all sins. Indeed, it is He who is the Forgiving, the Merciful.'" This verse underscores the boundless mercy of Allah and encourages believers not to lose hope but to earnestly repent and seek His forgiveness.

Repentance, therefore, according to the Quran, is a process that involves acknowledging one’s sins, feeling remorseful, asking for forgiveness, and committing to change. It brings spiritual healing and aligns the believer's actions with the divine will, fostering a sense of inner peace and harmony.

For 25 years, I've dedicated myself to uncovering indisputable evidence of God's existence. I've brought forth more evidence on God's reality than anyone else in modern times. From establishing the reality of Satan to affirming Jesus Christ as the Son of God, my journey has been profound. Jesus died for our sins, offering us a path to paradise and harmony. Yet, how did we come to overlook the incredible gifts of Jesus Christ, the Son of God? Why do so many invoke His name in vain? At what point did we stray from our path, when did I drift away?

Its never too late to bring about significant change in your life, if you are not swept off your feet with love then you need to find your purpose in life and never stop pursuing it.

I have reached the undeniable conclusion that God and heaven exist, and we are all a part of His divine plan. Instead of focusing on proving the existence of our creator, I choose to dedicate my life to demonstrating what it truly means to live. To love, to experience loss, to create, and to thrive—these are the aspects of life God intended for me, not the ones I sought on my own. Take a moment to reflect on La Crim's Life and witness the rhythmic echoes of the divine in that unique Cockney humor.

Women, undisputedly made in the image of God, are delightful beings with rich emotions. They experience joy, sadness, grief, and celebration. Together, let's build a brighter future and prioritize all people. God created us to love one another in our beautiful complexities; His only desire is for us to live in love, not conflict. In remembering Jesus Christ, let us hold onto this love in every season and build the legacy we aspire to. Let us teach our children their true worth. Whether you see God as singular or believe in many, remember that God does not judge. Our opinions are personal, and we each have the right to hold them. God reminds us that together we are stronger; with faith in Jesus Christ, you will find the righteous path you seek.

The future may be uncertain, but there's a hopeful promise that it can be brighter than the past. Embrace the teachings of Jesus Christ as a guiding light, with God by your side. Prioritizing humanity is essential, and together we can build the world we dream of, sharing it with those we hold dear. Remember, humans are among God's most profound creations, crafted in His image. God grants us life not to seek incessant gratitude but to see us rejoice in living. His desire is for us to appreciate our existence and experience the purest love. God's generous spirit is truly limitless.

I want to thank God for not turning his back on me, for being my rock, for being my guidance on this twisted road I thee tread. For it is not a man to choose his destiny in the shadows but it is for man to help each other prosper and together we will build a future and make it a worthy one at that.

It's never too late, make a change.

God bless Earth.

Join with me and repent, repent, repent!

As for the pinky starz one thing I am confident of is this is artificial in nature and that warrants a response that will be responded to. They already have responded in my eyes. My belief is that they left a scar on my right wrist when I discovered the star. Perhaps they utilized me with their healthcare. Furthermore, they left a scar on my Mums eye with an implant since removed. Yeah thats right they can time travel too, it's the only way I can make sense of any of it. These are our neighbours....

I am Michael Ezare Barrett and this has been my book of life, just how I saw it. The idea to write it came from watching Richard and Judy in 2005, it was a long process and even took years to start. I always knew from 2005 that it would be called La Crim's Life.

Formally diagnosed Paranoid Schizophrenic F20.0 since 2007 approximately and PTSD since 2022. This is how Paranoid Schizophrenia combined with PTSD and yet to be diagnosed drug overdose induced brain damage can do to warp the brain and this is the product of the imagination. Don't waste your time like I wasted mine.

My mind alters and plays with my memories to give me the self worth to protect myself from myself and it worked.

In writing this book I have come to realise that I am an addict, currently struggling with a cocaine addiction. For me now I will get into the CA rooms and attempt to break this cycle of addiction through doing the 12 steps. I'll take each day as it comes but let it be said that 6th December 2025 was the day I got clean, no more will my mood be dictated by substance misuse.

If you are a child and you are hurting in any way reach out to a responsible adult and they will guide you on your journey. I wrote this book just for you, I will be with all of you always.